I don't have everything together all the time. It's true. I said it out loud.
Truth is I doubt myself most of the time and struggle with anxiety. I don't know how to relax, to trust, or just "be in the moment".
When I was in high school I got straight A's, was in every club I could be in, played basketball, softball, was a cheerleader and on the dance team. I don't know how to commit to just one thing and perfect it. I always feel left out. It is a vicious cycle. Is it the artist brain? - one that triggers in so many directions but never truly commits?
Do you ever find yourself saying, "if I can just get through this. . .", but then "this" comes and goes and you are right back where you were?
I know I'm not alone. Many of you share the same struggles. And even in the greater sense, I know I'm not alone and HE is always with me. I need to remember that more.
I rarely use this blog to type anything personal -don't know why? Maybe I need to do that more. There is always comfort in knowing you are not the only one.
We had a great show. So many wonderful people who support us. I needed to see those faces and remind myself why I do what I do. With owning your own business the risks are great - but the rewards are many. Show is always a wonderful reminder of that.
I'm looking forward to this year and concentrating on what I do best (what is that exactly?) and finding a way to kick that self-doubter inside of me to the curb!
It's a little late for a New Year's Resolution but better late than never I suppose!
Hope the start to your week is great my friends!